现在 应该说是昨天了

几番挣扎下 还是去看了比赛 算得上愉悦的一天

因为基本上 我已经遗忘了最根本的目的

看着涌动的人群 看着飞驰而过的赛车

听着周围人的呼声 嘘声 听着轰鸣的马达声

以50米冲刺的速度跑过了大半个直道 冲向领奖台

欢笑 尖叫

证明着我真的在这里

这样的实在感 让人满足

 

此刻 却觉得难过

这样一场比赛 难道儿戏一场

他 在干什么 这样的成绩算是意料之中么

浑浑噩噩的比赛 浑浑噩噩的过程 浑浑噩噩的结局 仿若一场笑话

说着没有关系 只是个开始

只是

不知道还有多少时间可以浑浑噩噩的过

 

已是

而立之年

看着照片里 那张钓鱼杆上的芬兰国旗

那是昨天唯一看到的一个芬兰国旗

或者本来有很多 只不过早已经沉睡在大家的口袋里 失望么

总觉得像是 一场无休止的恶性循环

不知道归咎于谁 好似谁都有错 却谁都不是大错

什么时候 才能清醒

已无时日可以浑浑噩噩

 

今天的墨尔本 阳光灿烂

老天爷很给大家面子 前几日连续降雨 湿冷 仿若记忆中的成都

雨过天晴的日子里 留下的 却是此般回忆

终究失落啊

 

噩梦一场

什么时候才能醒来

 

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Cry

 

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
  
My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
  
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
  
Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart
  
My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
  
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
   
How did i get here with you, i’ll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I’m broken hearted, I can’t let you know
And I won’t let it show
You won’t see me cry
   
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
   
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
   
All my life…